Treatment

Okay it's been a little while. Starting April 1st I have re-started the hormones to get my going on a cycle. I took the progestrone for 10 days and then today I started my first pill of clomid!!! Clomid is the hormone that is supposed to stimulate my body to ovulate! I am trying my best not to think about it. The doctors have said not to talk about it, so I'm trying not to tell anyone that I have started the Clomid. It's too much pressure with everyone asking, "Oh, do you think it's working?" "Oh, try not to think about it!" Geez! So John and I have been very hush hush about this.
About a month ago I did a photo shoot with an old friend from church and she too has PCOS and she told me about the story in the Bible about the woman who reached for Jesus knowing that if she just touched him she would be healed. And once she did, Jesus told her that her FAITH had healed her. My friend said that she held on to that verse and claimed it in her life and now she has two beautiful girls. And the crazy thing is, just the day before I was reading that passage and it stuck out to me, but I didn't know why. Then God reveled it to me through my friend that I need to claim that over my life. And you know, there has been a lot more peace. Peace over everything for me.
The first time I started the hormones (before I was diagnosed with PCOS) I was soooo afraid to take it becuase ultimatly I was afraid of getting pregnant. But now, I am at peace with it all. Of course I want it to happen more than anything, but I am not stressed out like I was before. And even if I don't get pregnant on this round, I will be okay. I know its all on God's timing. He is the ultimate physician and I know he will do what is best for me when it is best for me.
I am excited to see what God has instore for me!!!! Thank you Lord!!!