Preparing the fields

Well, last night I took the last of the 5 day treatment of Clomid. I am giving it all to God. Yesterday John and I went out to lunch and I was talking to him about having faith. And I said, "You know what, I've done all my praying and I have faith, I think I need to prepare the fields." And now this is when it clicked to me. That's what I need to do. Okay, you all are probably wondering what I am talking about. There is the story about the 2 farmers who were both praying for rain for their crop. They both prayed everyday for the rain, but the one farmer went and prepared the fields for the rain while the other one just waited for the rain to come. The one who prepared his field was blessed because he had faith and was ready. So anyway. that is what I was talking about. I am feeling ready this time to have a baby. The last time we did the hormone treatment, I was petrified, but quite about it. But now I fell good about it! I am ready. We have the house. We have the family car.
And while I was thinking about this the last two days, it's really been pulling at my heart to "prepare." But I didn't know where to start. I mean, was this just going to get our hopes up? But that is just the devil trying to discourage me. John and I went to the store today to buy the ovulation kits and we walked down the baby supply isle. I was like, "What should we get to 'prepare'?" John looked around and an idea came to him. He said that before we get any of the baby items, he wanted to get the room cleaned out. You see, we have a guest bedroom and a band room. Well, we all know that the band room is staying(for now). He is talking about the little guest room that we have that just holds all our junk. So that is what we are going to do...clean out that room!!!! I am so excited. And you know what, I'm not worried at all. It will all happen when God wants it to happen, but in the mean time, I can prepare the fields for the blessing. I am not saying we are going to rush out tomorrow to get the crib....baby steps! lol. But it is in the direction of baby!!!
And in the mean time, I am praying hard! I will be happy with anything, but I have, since I was 12, always thought that some day I would have twins or triplets. And it runs in John's family and my family. So naturally I have been praying for that, but I know it isn't up to me. God knows how many John and I can handle, and so I will be happy and blessed with as many as God wants to give us!
I am so excited and can't wait to see what happens!!!! God is so good, and I know He will bless us! This PCOS has been such a blessing for me becuase I have grown so much closer to God through it all. I was so depressed and felt like God wasn't there when all of this first came about. But then that's when I realized that I needed to lean on Him more. And I have. I have totally surrendered it all to Him and know that He will take care of it all. It has been an amazing journey and I can't wait to see what happens next. I am so glad that I have Him in my life, other wise I don't know what I would have done. Thank you Lord for all you have done!